The summer I left for college... Everything felt gray. The world around me was put behind a wall and I was merely spectating the scenarios, or so it felt like. The laughs I shared with my friends and the stories of lovers and crushes that still made sense to discuss even after school was over might have been some of the best times of my life. In the nights we'd have a sleepover but not sleep at all, and in the mornings we would be up playing basketball, all of it seems like a fever dream now. A few years ago I wouldn't have thought this is how I would be living my life. Did I deserve to be this happy? Or maybe not, since I would proceed to fall out with a close friend and have another tell me that we weren't close. Hell, I couldn't even get into the college I wanted to. It makes me wonder if I even knew anything back then. Even today, I think the answer is still "No". Maybe it has always been this way. Maybe all this time I never really knew anything. I found...